.senior.year.biographies.[todd].

I feel like out of all of my friends, Todd is the one I owe the most. Meeting him my senior year, was like meeting a therapist. It was and is so medicinal to have someone I can relate to. He is a straight version of me. He’s my metro-sexual little brother. I started my senior year with a loathing hate for Todd. He had everything I thought I wanted; Chamber Choir member, a friendship with the people I wanted, and most of all, he’s beyond skinny and has a body I only dream of having, and I was jealous. Sorry for the awkwardness… haha. Basically I got over my hate for him, and we became the greatest of friends. I don’t know what I would do If I lost Todd. Part of the reason I started this blog, was that I finally came out to him, and because I did so I am finally able to be honest with the world.

Todd Bean. Wow. He is weird, crazy, hyperactive, completely dance crazed, dramatic, talented, and absolutely strong in anything he does. It’s crazy. I’ve never met someone with such an intense love for music. And a thriving love for life. I know that whenever I have issues, Todd is able to be accepting of me and put me right back into the perspective of life. As far as my senior year goes, Todd became my best friend. And I don’t know what I would do without him now. He brings a smile to my face just by being his bitchy little self all the time. It’s amazing to me. The relationships he has with Kara, Rachel, and even Anna, aren’t maybe the healthiest, but it is magic to me how he makes it all work, and when it isn’t working, he still makes it all… well work, without working… that makes no sense on paper, but it’s the fact that he is true to himself even when it’s all falling apart in front of him. Whenever he says he’s not going to talk to them for “a month” or whatever I know it will last not even half of what he says, because he is forgiving and loving of his friends.

With Todd, there is very little of a “grace period”. He is down to a schedule and likes knowing when and where things are happening. A common txt from Todd is,

“Where? Time Gauge?”

Not only do I smile every time he says this, but it’s a simple example of Todd. I bring this up, because I feel like Todd is reliable in being himself. I had a hard time in high school dealing with people that couldn’t be themselves around certain people. They would change depending on who they’d be around, and live multi-faceted lives. This makes NO sense to me, yet I was living the ultimate façade throughout high school, but that’s beside the fact, I don’t understand how people can change who they are so quickly around different people. My junior year I drove home two girls nearly every day from the high school, and at the end of the year one of the girls said something that has really stuck with me especially in the last few months…

“You taught me to be proud of the person I am, and to not care what people think of me”

I remember when she said that feeling like I had finally affected someone. Like the confidence I had been trying to show had finally come through and been made prevalent to someone other than just myself. Todd has a way of showing that same confidence. Knowing that the world may not accept the person he is, and knowing that they may judge… but that he will still be Todd. And He will be proud to be Todd. That is a hard thing for a lot of people, especially in high school. As much as I want to act better than everyone around me, I learn new things about the person I want to be and the person I am every day, and Todd, and the rest of my friends do a GREAT job at putting me into perspective and making it known that I have room to grow… in a good way.

When high school ended I wrote all of my friend’s letters; Todd’s means a lot to me. It’s the only one out of the group that I feel contains the most truth. I know that everything he has in that letter contains the definition of our friendship, and I hope that he values those words as much as I do. (Even if a paragraph repeats the same words over and over)

:)