.off.to.[tumblr].

if you follow me here, i suggest going to my new blog, where i will actually continue to post things.

walywalter.tumblr.com

I'm just done with blogspot... it's too... finicky.

LERVERS YOU ALL!!!

.hmmm.[interesting].

Well well well. Jessica is gone. Cyndel and Jarom will be home tomorrow, and Jack Ariel and Christian got home a couple hours ago. Give it a couple weeks when Jessica gets home and this summer will REALLY pick up! I'm so happy to be friends with all of them.

Oh and ps to everyone else (Caroline, Cody, Jeni-sage, Anna, D'Angelo, Lane, and everyone else....) don't think it's that I don't love you. It's just that I'm waiting for YOU to call me:) or for the opportunity to drive to where you are. Hahaha

I love ALLLLL of you. And I can't wait to see you all:) EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU!!!!

.i.would.rather.pull.my.eyes.out.and.stomp.on.them.[OVER AND OVER AND OVER].

Hiking. NO
Moutains. NO
Fires with people I don't know. NO
Doing pretty much nothing. NO

AMEN. Praise the effing Jews.

.gonna.crap.a.[brick].

Doesn't the world just make you want to crap sometimes? Seriously. I want to throw a brick at my brain for hurting. And I also want to throw a brick at like 12 different people right now. Namely idina menzel for being so bloody talented!!! I watched a video of her singing today. One I've seen several times already, and it's seriously amazing. The sheer talent she has makes me want to crap into a mold of a brick and then throw it at my laptop while the video is playing. BLAH!!! I swear it's annoying. Why can't I have that!?

Oh and for those of you that read my blog, and not just select posts, I pulled a nerve today. I don't know if that's exactly what you would call it, but it hurts like none other. LIKE UNBELIEVABLY. seriously amazing. I wish I could go back and realize it was going to hurt all day to yawn, and make the decision not to yawn. But whatever.

And to my wonderful friends watching this completely LAME tv show. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!! let's do something else!!! Like take me home!!! I'm miserably bored!!! Seriously!!!

.[post.surgery].happiness.

I love cyndel, and her house, and her computer...

She probably doesn't read my blog... but I love her anyway:)

Anyway, I haven't written on my blog in a while... since my surgery! It's been a little over a month now, and I'm doing GREAT!!! I'm feeling awesome and most of the initial healing is over. I had the stitches on the on my jaw (outside close to my sideburns) removed the tuesday after surgery, and have been visiting with my ortho and surgeon practically weekly. Most of the feeling is back. JACCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCK!!!! (the joey... of the group) Having the feeling come back was actually completely miserable. It doesn't hurt, and it isn't itching, but it's almost.... bubbly. If you've ever popped a nerve you know what I mean.... I tried almost everything to help with sleeping and the irritation, even to the point of popping the actual razor off of my razor (which vibrates) and holding onto my jaw to itch the nerve.... it was horrible. I lost a good 20 pounds in the first 3 weeks, and have luckily kept most of it off. I think I look much more healthy now, but some people have been telling me I look anorexic, but I love it!!!

Happily I will get my braces of in about 6 months. I'm really excited to see the actual finished product when I have all the feeling back and have my pretty white teeth:) It'll be awesome!!! overall life is great and the surgery was a HUGE success!!!!

I just want to take a minute to say, I love my friends. They are the thing that makes me smile every day. Whether it's the people I see everyday, my co-workers, or the friends that I almost never see, but show up at chili's and say hi. I love everyone. I want them all to know that they make my world go round and I couldn't be happier to be part of each one of their lives.

.[day.of].

It's about 4:30 and I'm still in bed. But I'll be getting up in about half an hour to get showered and dressed to head to the hospital.... Had kinda a crappy night. Got in a couple arguments. Dealt with stupid drama from people that I hardly even care about. And meanwhile my brain runs about a million miles an hour thinking about my surgery. It's going to be so insane to look in the mirror and not see... Well me. I know that sounds really stupid. But you get accustomed to seeing yourself, and then you go and do something like this. And well. It's different. But I'm so excited!!

I already kinda had a melt down on Facebook about this but yeah... Lemme copy it so I can bring you up to speed....

"You know what I'm sick of. I'm sick of people over exaggerating the influence of slang terms. Let's be honest. If I want to say something. And yes, I've "thought before I said it" then I'm going to say it. Man kind puts power behind words. The impact something someone says has on you is simply up to you. So take your opinion and shove it. There you go. I thought about it! Oh and as far as blacks calling themselves niggers, whites - crackers, gays - queers, lesbians - dykes, and whatever else you can come up with. I say get over it. I could decide that the word alphabet means stupid inflamatory bitch, and you'd be mad? It's all your decision and interpretation."

so basically. I keep hearing people saythings like, "don't say 'that's so gay' because it's rude" and "don't say 'that's retarded' because people who are retarded will be offended". Well number one. I'm gay. And I say that's gay ALL THE TIME!!! it's a figure of speech it's not supposed to be an association to being gay. If that was how it is people would say. Oh my that pizza is dumber than being gay. Or dumber than a gay person. It's ridiculous. Half of the people upset about the "that's gay" comment ARENT EVEN GAY!!! so I say get over it.

As far as the "retard" goes. That's a little more understandable. I think mybiggest frustration is that, majority of the time that I'm saying "retard" or "retarded" I'm mocking myself. And if I want to call myself retarded, then by golly I'm going to call myself retarded. Honestly. I don't think that it's THAT big of a deal, if when I do something stupid that I say, " sorry I'm so retarded." but maybe it is. Maybe the world is going to freeze over because one human being used a word in the English language that connotates retardation. Language is an interpretive influencer. If someone was yelling at me in Japanese, I might know a few of the things they are saying, but I'm not going to be mad, because of the words they are using, I'm going to be mad because they are yelling at me. Same goes for using these terms. People aren't saying "that's gay" or "I'm retarded" to be offensive. It's a slang term they have chosen to use. Give them their free agency and back off.

More updates from my surgery will come once I'm coherent enough to write:) love y'all!!!

.and.then.they.cut.my.[jaw].well.they.will.

So I'm sitting here... Watching um... Seven brothers? Haha I don't really know. Well yeah. And i can't think about anything other than my surgery. I have about 31 hours. And then I'll be pretty much miserable for a good month. So what am I going to do? Wait for my friends to visit:) haha yeah. And then my friend Ariel said she's awesome. [if I was a woman I would dress and be exactly like Ariel:)] so yeah:)

:)

so yeah. I'm gonna go back to burning the last 31 hours of insanity left!!! Blog you later bitches:)